Hermione Granger (prefection) wrote,
Hermione Granger

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This morning, as I was working quite hard to finish this extra credit Herbology assignment, I got a rather harried visit from your husband. In fact, he's still here, albeit asleep.

After his frantic knocking and pleadings to be let inside, I could hardly say no. Although if he had any delusions that he was going to be able to just sit in here and sulk without telling me what in Merlin's name was going on, he had another thing coming.

Following several cups of tea and an eventual ultimatum on my part, he finally started talking.


Draco, I feel I should first say that I personally understand your motivation where the separate rooms are concerned. In fact, my own parents have been known to employ similar measures when things get a bit, well, heated between them. The fact that you and Harry happen to live together and share half your classes together means that you have virtually no break from each other. I understand this. When Ron and I were dating, I made sure I had enough alone time so as to ensure Ron's physical well-being - he can be quite infuriating as a friend, let alone a boyfriend.

That being said, however, I think that you fail to grasp just how it is that Harry thinks as a result of how he grew up. I know that you've seen first hand just how dreadful those horrible relatives of his treated him, but I can guarantee you that the physical signs of the way the Dursley's showed their displeasure in Harry is not all there is to it.

Did you know that Harry never had a proper birthday until Hagrid came to get him from the Dursley's? Did you know that he could never remember even being hugged by anyone until I did so in our first year here? Or that he can't ever remember being told by anyone that they loved him until you said it that first time? I'm sure that he knew Ron and I loved him, and Dumbledore, Hagrid, et al, but it's not the same as hearing it. For that I am truly sorry I did not say it to him earlier.

My point, Draco, is that Harry has this constant fear of not being loved or wanted. He went without it for too long, and while we all know Harry is very brave, well I think it's pretty obvious that the Dursley's damaged him in ways that very few people can really see. We just happen to be the two of the few that can. He'd never admit it, and I'm fairly sure he's going to be quite angry with me if he sees this. But if you could have seen him here today - the things he said...well I couldn't not say anything.

He knows that you love him. But Harry reacts first and thinks about it later. I think that when you suggested what you did last night, all he saw was separation from, well, the most important person in his life and it really scared him. He thinks you're pushing him away because there are things about him that you don't love or like, and in the back of his mind that reminds him of the Dursley's.

It's all quite textbook, really. Human psychology isn't so difficult to understand.

That's all I had to say, really. I suppose I should let him sleep - he's obviously tired, and I'm sure he tossed and turned all night. He said something about moving his things to a turret on the south side of the castle while you were on prefect duty this evening. I suspect he'll be 'hiding out' here until then. You're more than welcome to pop by if you wish. Or not. It's up to you.

And one more thing, Draco - if you fail him, I'll make your life a living hell. That is all.
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