Hermione Granger (prefection) wrote,
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This morning, as I was working quite hard to finish this extra credit Herbology assignment, I got a rather harried visit from your husband. In fact, he's still here, albeit asleep.

After his frantic knocking and pleadings to be let inside, I could hardly say no. Although if he had any delusions that he was going to be able to just sit in here and sulk without telling me what in Merlin's name was going on, he had another thing coming.

Following several cups of tea and an eventual ultimatum on my part, he finally started talking.

Well.

Draco, I feel I should first say that I personally understand your motivation where the separate rooms are concerned. In fact, my own parents have been known to employ similar measures when things get a bit, well, heated between them. The fact that you and Harry happen to live together and share half your classes together means that you have virtually no break from each other. I understand this. When Ron and I were dating, I made sure I had enough alone time so as to ensure Ron's physical well-being - he can be quite infuriating as a friend, let alone a boyfriend.

That being said, however, I think that you fail to grasp just how it is that Harry thinks as a result of how he grew up. I know that you've seen first hand just how dreadful those horrible relatives of his treated him, but I can guarantee you that the physical signs of the way the Dursley's showed their displeasure in Harry is not all there is to it.

Did you know that Harry never had a proper birthday until Hagrid came to get him from the Dursley's? Did you know that he could never remember even being hugged by anyone until I did so in our first year here? Or that he can't ever remember being told by anyone that they loved him until you said it that first time? I'm sure that he knew Ron and I loved him, and Dumbledore, Hagrid, et al, but it's not the same as hearing it. For that I am truly sorry I did not say it to him earlier.

My point, Draco, is that Harry has this constant fear of not being loved or wanted. He went without it for too long, and while we all know Harry is very brave, well I think it's pretty obvious that the Dursley's damaged him in ways that very few people can really see. We just happen to be the two of the few that can. He'd never admit it, and I'm fairly sure he's going to be quite angry with me if he sees this. But if you could have seen him here today - the things he said...well I couldn't not say anything.

He knows that you love him. But Harry reacts first and thinks about it later. I think that when you suggested what you did last night, all he saw was separation from, well, the most important person in his life and it really scared him. He thinks you're pushing him away because there are things about him that you don't love or like, and in the back of his mind that reminds him of the Dursley's.

It's all quite textbook, really. Human psychology isn't so difficult to understand.

That's all I had to say, really. I suppose I should let him sleep - he's obviously tired, and I'm sure he tossed and turned all night. He said something about moving his things to a turret on the south side of the castle while you were on prefect duty this evening. I suspect he'll be 'hiding out' here until then. You're more than welcome to pop by if you wish. Or not. It's up to you.

And one more thing, Draco - if you fail him, I'll make your life a living hell. That is all.
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I would just like to express my affection for being threatened, Granger. That is the stuff.

As you've evidently been taken on as a confidante in my absence, I will warn you in kind. This is not to be spread outside of our circle. I'll not have you humiliating Potter by announcing his fears for all and sundry to jeer at.

In any event, I appreciate your apparent understanding of where I stand on the matter. I assume you'd prefer Potter alive to strangled to death, so this must be terribly exciting for you, being eternally right and whatnot.

I do hope you realize how distressing it is to be forced into recognizing the fact that you understand my warped methodology. Please keep him safe until he wants to be out and about. . . . Thank you.
Oh, it's not a threat, Draco. It's a promise.

Of course I'm his confidante - I'm his friend and have been for almost half his life. And if you think I would do such a thing as to broadcast anything of the sort, well then you clearly don't know me at all.

I personally find it quite comforting that we both agree on anything where Harry is concerned.
Oh, how quaint. I can nearly feel The Warm Fuzzies threatening to take me over.

Broadcast? What're you on about, Granger?

Yes, it would seem many are frequently concerned where Potter is concerned.
To be quite honest, Draco, I am not as concerned with your 'warm fuzzies' as I am Harry's happiness.

It means I won't announce it via a Sonorus charm just for kicks.

You say that as if you have a problem with that. You should be pleased that so many are willing to look out for his welfare.
Good. Then make him understand, since his speaking to me is obviously distasteful.

Oh. Well, that would be a rather stupid trick, anyhow, and I actually do give you more credit than that.

They do so for the wrong reasons.
Draco. Have you heard a word I said? It won't matter coming from me.

What on earth do you mean by that? What wrong reasons?
I was promptly ignored all last night when I tried to explain things to him in a way he could grasp. Potter is rather adept at both tuning me out and exhibiting selective hearing.

He's got quite a reputation, and is reasonably famous. Infamous. Whichever. In either case, many who act concerned do so with ulterior and often selfish motives in mind.
I am very familiar with his reactions to such things. But that's what Harry does, and surely you must know this by now. It's also why, sometimes, you have to persuade him into thinking the decision was made by him.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but he has to be manipulated into thinking he's the one instigating the change. I know you can do this - I've seen you do it before. Harry does not cope well with change and fights against it, but he eventually comes around and adapts. I'm sure he'll do so in this instance as well, it just might take a bit longer.

The Wizarding world at large is not my concern. I'm speaking of us - his friends, the Professor's, Arthur and Molly Weasley.
I can't manipulate on command, Granger. Lord, what do you people think I am? Pure evil?

I suspect whatever end this eventually comes to will not, in fact, justify the means.

Quite frankly, the Weasleys frighten me.

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And of course I'll keep him safe. He's just distressed. But the sleep will do him good.
Yes, he could stand a few decent hours worth, I suspect.
Well, he seems quite out if it right now. He's not mumbling anymore so he seems to be getting some solid rest at the moment.
If he begins muttering to himself, smooth down his hair and pat his cheek.
Oh. Right. Okay then. I can do that.
If you attempt to kiss him I'll break your fingers. I feel this is adequate warning.
First of all, I've kissed Harry plenty of times. I kiss him goodbye every summer, I kiss him when I wish him a Happy Christmas, and sometimes I kiss him when I'm especially proud of him.

You can't touch me, Draco. I'd have you hexed into next week before you could even get your wand out. And if you think Harry would stand for it, then you're wrong on that point as well.
You wouldn't dare, Granger. Any hex or other means of violence against my person could, after all, adversely affect Potter's offspring.

You're treading in my territory as it is, Granger. Watch your footing.

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Also, I'd like to think I more than made up for his appalling lack of birthday festivities both this year and last, thanks.
You have missed the point. I'm not saying he hasn't had lovely birthdays the past few years.

But Draco, imagine going for ten years as a little child with nary a 'Happy Birthday, Draco' from loved ones.
Yes, and that is precisely why it is in Potter's best interest to not get himself throttled to death by me, as I would hate to have Baby grow up in a similar manner due to one parent's death and the other's sentencing to a lifetime in Azkaban.

I can only do so much.
Oh stop being so melodramatic and just listen to what I am trying to tell you.
I understand he's lived a miserable life, Granger.

It is exceptionally frustrating to be unable to turn back the clock and rectify things.
No one is asking you to try the impossible. None of us can 'fix' what's been broken inside. All we can do is take these things into account and modify how it is we...deal with him.

He needs reassurance, Draco.
How am I to deal with him when he's itching to disappear every time I make a suggestion he finds offensive for whatever reason?

I TRY.
Do you know what saddened me most of all about our conversation, Draco? He was still surprised that you came for him last night up here in our tower.

That says a lot, you know.

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